Advise for the teens 💜

I have suffered from acne since childhood to the age of 19 , and during that period I've literally tried everything i could have my hands on but to no avail .

soaps ,cremes, masks, And pills that almost killed me once you name it . and not all of us have supportive family, Which is a truth I've decided to make this post for.

my own mother constantly told me things like

why are you embarrassing me on purpose.

i wanna throw up when i look at you

we're ashamed of being seen out with you

as dramatically far to saying ,i wish i killed you when i had the chance ( as in when i was very little )

and i didn't even have intense acne to Begin with you see ? on the other hand it was just prolonged since I've got my first period . but what can an 11 year old know about hormones ?

it pushed me to do anything and everything to please them

the guilt and the shame and the confusion weight more than any word can

I've even missed many classes calling in sick, Missing events and happy memories i could've made because i was so ashamed to be seen in the sun

i drowned in videos , and researches about how to fix it and following them i stopped eating most things i used to enjoy chocolate, snacks, sweets, sugar, fast food ,oily treats you name it i believed of i starved myself from these things as the professional doctors on the videos said i will make it .

but of course it didn't , eating healthy never hurted anyone . but it can only do much not miracles .

I've neglected my younger self so much and hated me the most for nothing

two years after I've decided i should just end my life exhausted of the constant abuse

my acne cleared up .

It cleared up on its own due the hormones balancing eventually as i grew up , without any diet, without any medication , without even cureacne that I've heard does miracles but my country never had it available.

it felt as simple as opening a door and leaving a phase as it ended the way it was always Bound to.

and i felt stupid i felt so stupid and guilty for how bad I've treated my poor self to please others on something i could never control and affected the quality of my life so much that i wished to end it before i even turned 18 .

i don't know who needs to hear this but i just know I'm not alone facing such unfairness and i surely sadly wouldn't be the last . wether your parents, a guy , a jealous girl , bullies or ignorant idiots in your entourage .

do not listen to them . You're beautiful the way you are, and acne is only a sickness the way any other sickness can be . tiring , frustrating, Draining

but you're still stronger than all of that combined do not let anyone speak over you when your voice is louder than they'll ever get

believe in yourself and never doubt your beauty.

And if that seem to be too hard to do . I'll be your voice . they say beauty is in the eye of the beholder I find all of you gorgeous inside out and I'll gladly remind you many times as many as it takes for you to believe

you got this 💜 Please don't hurt yourself. -Destiny